Before The Worst

Ahadina Dewi Maghfiroh.

Yea. She's the most cheerful girl I've ever known. It's not a long time I've known her. About 2 years but be my close friend in this grade.

Good-hearted, smart, cheerful. That's all I know about her.

She had an accident on 10th June 2011. I thought that it was a kidding. Nope, I'm totally wrong.

Well, I'm just can staring in front of my laptop, thinking about your condition, listening to Not Like The Movie by Katy Perry and Pray by Justin Bieber over and over again, praying for your condition. I wish you get better soon as fast as possible.

I'm kinda missing your smile, your words, your hair. So, this is me now. I'm crying and praying for you.

Get better soon, Dina. I know you can through this time. I know it's hard. Be tough, be strong. We support you, we are here for you.

We promise if you get better we will show our surprise!

GET BETTER SOON! WE ♥ YOU.

PS: especially him

Sincerely,

Miauw

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It was March 9th 2011

"I've never felt so alive like I feel right now in this moment"

It was Wednesday. I believe.
Yeah, I thought everything would be alright on this day. But, I was definitely wrong!
My heart said that I wanna ran away or escape from this school. But you know to do that is so hard. Ergh!
Some of my friends was laughing in my class while I and my friends was getting mad.
It's not my class anymore. It's their class. I thought.
But, no longer. I went to the cafeteria with my closest friends. We met our other friends.
I was so grateful because we had a good conversation.
I hope it will be like this in another time.

We had no teachers to teach us in that day. Yeah, busy people or lazy to teach us. I don't know about that. But we were grateful too because we were free.
I almost forget, that day was Roby's birthday. Tee-Hee! We had a good plan for him. We will showered him with flour. I won't to get that.
We walked down stairs and went to yard, watched the football. It was stupid I think. Lol.
Finally we showered him with flour. We were like in the kitchen and the kitchen blew up the flour. Some of my friends were like old men.
It was so funny I think. We laughed together. We smiled together. And didn't forget to take photos because it was a good moment.

After that we made a circle than told our own problems in our class. But, there was no our friend. We were lost our funniest guy. It was sad. And I cried.
We told our problem till 4pm.
It was so memorable. And I hope things will be better that yesterday. Amen.

And I was so grateful to meet you all. My second family. My 25 cousins.
I loved and love and I'm loving you all.
xxxxx

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The Call

This song, I dedicate for my old folks and friends that will be old folks

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
’Til it was a battle cry

I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
’Til they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye

Thanks
xxxxx

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Flashback

Flashback to my past. Since I was in 1st grade until 7th grade. I love that 6 years. Full of memories, love, friends, laugh, cry, sad, mad, crazy, etc. Actually I don't try to remember that. It's stuck in my mind. I don't know why. Let me tell you about my past since I was in 1st grade until 7th grade that full of memories.

In 1st grade I was so stupid. I didn't know what's homework, and how to do it. It was a gloomy year. But I'd love it. In 2nd grade, I had best friends 2 best friends they were so funny, I can't say anything about them. In 3rd grade I was lil bit boyish. I like to play with the boys and fought with the boys. And I was being crazy with my friends. In 4th grade I had many kind of illness made me stupid. Everything so ordinary and gloomy. In 5th grade, I had many activities to do because I had to take course, study for that Science match, etc that make me tired.

And finally 6th grade. It was SO PERFECT year. I love everything happened in that year. My classmates and the other class is so crazy and funny. I had best friends. One of my best friend is my classmates and the other 3 were in the other class. But we had a good communication. We never had a miss communication between our classes. We were so cohesive. Anything were very good. But, suddenly hurricane was coming. It was getting closer to our final of final test that means we have to leave our perfect year. We were so sad. Tears, our classes is full of tears. Because we had to leave.

But I thank to my loveliest, funniest, craziest friends I ever had. Who taught me everything, who loved me, who made me laughed, who made me cries, who drove me crazy, anything good or bad. But I thank you soo muuuch. I can't say anything. And I hope you still remember me. I was me and I am me. Your craziest sister. If I have a fairy I will say to her that I want I go back to my elementary school when everything was alright.

Love,
xxxxx

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I Miss You

"Where are you and I'm so sorry. I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always. This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime. And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders, catching things and eating their insides. Like indecision to call you. And hear your voice of treason. Will you come home and stop this pain tonight,
stop this pain tonight"

Those are parts of my favorite song. I Miss You - Blink 182. I knew that song when I was in 6th grade and now I'm in 8th grade. I never feel bored with this song. This is awesome song. Simple lyric, good music. And this song reminds me of you. Yeah, you. Someone out there.

Love
xxxxxx

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Stolen

We watch the season
Pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only
Grand farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep well

Sleep well
Sleep well
Sleep well

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We, all, look, like
we, feel


You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart



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Our Memories

Everything was fine. We just did everything we want. Yeah, because we're teenager. We did everything just for our fun.
Well, now I'm in 8th grade. But I want everything just like when I was in 7th grade.
Laughed, joked, smiled, cried, scared, etc. We did it together. Together even it was hurt.
It's so fun when we remember our past.

Yesterday is yesterday, today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow.
Everything can't happen in 2 times.
Sometimes we hope everything can back in our time when everything was okay.
But you know, it's so impossible, you can't back to yesterday.

Create your own memories.
Remember it in your own heart and brain.

PS: Don't think about your past. Just remember it. And put your memories.. in your heart.

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Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about better do without
And just hold a smile
Falling in and out of love
A scene their proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never while we don't know it
Time and time again
Younger now then we were before
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian from all that's coming down
Steady your hand

You can never say never while we don't know it
Time time and time again
Younger now then we were before
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.

We're falling apart,
We're coming together,
Again and again
We're crawling apart,
But we're falling together,
Falling together
Together again

Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.
Don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.

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That Night

22.30
I was really exhausted of the day.
I'm really tired of being sick.
I wanna sleep. Yeah sleep. My eyes couldn't open again.
But my mind want me to open my eyes.

22.32
I closed all my damn book.
Took a rest for a while before I go to bed.
I walked to my room and count my footstep.

22.34
I think I just wanna go to sleep.
Before sleep I prayed that I don't want to get any worse.
I closed my eyes. I whispered "Thanks God of the endowment"

22.44
I couldn't sleep. This is a little shit.
I walked to my window and sat on there.
I count stars on the sky.
By count a star I know how much people in this world love me.
I wish for a shooting star. I know this is stupid.

22.50
I closed my eyes. I breath with night air.
Oh you. Do you still remember me?
I opened my eyes. And I try to trust you.
I looked my handphone. And smiled.
I felt so alone. So quite in here.

23.00
I closed my window. And I looked the stars for the second time.
"This is more than enough"
I lay my head into my pillow.
I closed my eyes and said

"God let me be in happy always with them and with you. Amen"

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