That Night

22.30
I was really exhausted of the day.
I'm really tired of being sick.
I wanna sleep. Yeah sleep. My eyes couldn't open again.
But my mind want me to open my eyes.

22.32
I closed all my damn book.
Took a rest for a while before I go to bed.
I walked to my room and count my footstep.

22.34
I think I just wanna go to sleep.
Before sleep I prayed that I don't want to get any worse.
I closed my eyes. I whispered "Thanks God of the endowment"

22.44
I couldn't sleep. This is a little shit.
I walked to my window and sat on there.
I count stars on the sky.
By count a star I know how much people in this world love me.
I wish for a shooting star. I know this is stupid.

22.50
I closed my eyes. I breath with night air.
Oh you. Do you still remember me?
I opened my eyes. And I try to trust you.
I looked my handphone. And smiled.
I felt so alone. So quite in here.

23.00
I closed my window. And I looked the stars for the second time.
"This is more than enough"
I lay my head into my pillow.
I closed my eyes and said

"God let me be in happy always with them and with you. Amen"